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Trust & Doubt

Trusting God when he doesn't do what you asked

Much of Struggling Well circles a single question: can I trust God when he doesn't do what I asked, in the way I wanted, on the timeline I hoped for? Jimmy and Suzi are honest that hope can curdle into a demand, and that we sometimes get angry at a version of God we invented rather than the one in his word. What they keep coming back to is that faith rests on the object of our faith, not the amount of it, and that God himself is more satisfying than the rescue we came for.

In their words

When he doesn't do it in a manner that I think it should be done or a time frame that I think it would be nice, then I realize that what I'm really looking for is, is it relationship or is it a transactional thing that gets him to deliver on what I need.

Jimmy, Ep 108

That hope can turn into a demand that God come through in a certain way. And when he doesn't come through, then we step away from him in big ways. Sometimes people step away entirely.

Jimmy, Ep 168

We make our own little story or narrative, theology, whatever you want to call it, of who God is that doesn't meet up with who he is in his word. And then we get angry at that construct that we've made, because that's not what God said at all.

Suzi, Ep 064

Although faith feels like it's blind, my faith is in something solid. I read his word, I read about him, and I'm grounded in who he is, not in the circumstances. It's not the amount of faith I have, it's the object of my faith, which is Christ.

Jimmy & Suzi, Ep 008

We know the story that he does rescue them, but it's that line, ‘and even if he doesn't, we're not going to bow down to you, Nebuchadnezzar’ — because God is more satisfying than even rescue.

Jimmy & Suzi, Ep 002

Here's the other thing that's amazing about Job to me: he never stops going after God. So when he's struggling, when he's suffering, he continues to pursue God. I would think that that's one of the things that defines struggling well: when I will not turn away from God even though I don't understand.

Jimmy, Ep 050

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